Many people go through life by autopilot. They do not live, they only exist. I was one of them. Outwardly, I seemed happy and successful, but on the inside I was alone and very insecure. I fought hard for external validation and the approval of others. I chased achievements and status symbols to be consider as successful in the eye of other. No one close to me really knew just how lonely and insecure I felt during my upbringing and far into my adulthood. How would they know? My external facade and act were so perfected and polished, that I convinced everyone around me to believe that I was a perfectly happy and joyful girl, living her dream. The pressure I put on myself led to eating disorders, high level of stress and fatigue syndrome. It wasn't until my mom died after nine years of fighting cancer that I dared to stop running away from my problems and instead confront what I had been trying to flee from my entire life: Myself. Just a few months after my mom's death I started a course in personal development and inner leadership. That was a journey that saved my life. After four years of knowledge and therapy I could free myself from my codependency, that was the primary cause of my destructive behaviors and actions and find my true Self. I could heal form the inside and out and start living my life to the fullest. This booked is about my own personal journey on how I healed and moved on after many years of self-destructive behaviors and actions. My wish is for you, through my experiences, to know that there is always a way out of suffering. With love, Caroline Albo
